Letter for Two (I accept your apology)

Letter for Two (I accept your apology)

To My Dearest Two:

From the day that each of you inhaled your first breath I adored you. I changed my entire life for each of you (I think they call this maternal). Even though there were times when I could not give you all of the things that you thought you wanted, I was able to provide the things in life that you needed.

There were so many times when I was the one that took ever so dauntlessly your defiance, your selfishness, your arrogance, and your unwillingness to make my job an easier one. Be mindful that parenting is not equipped with an 'how to' manual. I was the one that knew what was best for you at the time. I loved and gave you too much. Maybe that was my only fault, loving each of you too much. I sheltered you from harms way of the world because I knew first hand how brutal and wicked this world could be. But you didn't see that then. In your naive eyes, I was always the 'enemy'. The outsider.

I thought at the time that we were each other's nucleus. Was I wrong? Was I so wrong??

Unbeknownst to you, when you hurt me with a roll of your eye, or a slam of your door, or ignored me as you people often do, (as teenagers often do), I still had love for you. Even though the next day I awoke to tear soaked pillowcases. You never knew this did you? Through it all, I believed that I had to continue to be there for the two of you when you needed me. You always thought you would never need me didn't you? Thought you had this life thing figured out. But you did need me. And I was there! (We do that type of thing, us parents, try to be there for our children no matter the consequence). Selfless love I heard it called. We cannot help ourselves.

I want you both to know that I accept your heartfelt apology. I accept your apology for the times that you treated me with the utmost haughtiness.

I accept your apology because I know that you love me, even though no matter how many times I heard it in life, to me it was never enough.

I could feel then, when I was amongst you, exactly what you are feeling right now. Your pain, your regrets for what you should have told me, should have did for me. Know, I accept your apology for forgetting the mother's days and birthday's, even though I tried to tell you then how significant those days are while your mother is alive.

For all the times that I was ignored, defied, mistreated, disliked, lied to, taken for granted, hated, and turned against. I want you EACH of you to know ....... I accept your apology.

I am hopeful even though my physical body cannot embrace you and take the pain away, that you now will remember my birthday and realize why mother's day has a very, very, very special meaning.

I am hopeful that you are not taking this lesson too hard.

I just want each of you to know how much I love you still, even though I cannot tell you.

I accept your apologies... that I never will be able to hear.

As I write this final letter for two, please know that I do not want you to live your lives perforated with guilt. I write this letter to ease your minds and to let you know .... I accept.

I accept. For all the sunlit skies that I will never see......I accept.

I accept. For all of your smiles, tickles in your laughter, and all of the laughter to follow....I accept.

I have accepted that you loved me THEN as you love me NOW.

I have accepted that you were just being teenagers.

THIS'''''..is my Letter for Two.

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About the author: C.V. Harris is a writer living in South Orange New Jersey who's passion for expressing the sentiments of love, grief and triumph can be both entertaining as well as motivating. C.V. Harris can be contacted at Click Here